2016
International Documentary Filmfestival Amster
長片競賽單元評審團特別獎
Directed by 范儉
長片競賽單元評審團特別獎
可以這麼說，我就是為了這支紀錄片而訂閱Giloo的。第一次接觸到余秀華的詩，自然是最響亮的那〈穿越大半個中國來睡你〉。特別其中一句「我是無數個我奔跑成一個我去睡你」，腦袋有了動畫的聯想與覺。但再讀幾首，我更鍾情〈我愛你〉，還將最後幾句「如果給你寄一本書／我不會寄給你詩歌／我要給你一本關於植物，關於莊稼的／告訴你稻子和稗子的區別／告訴你一棵稗子提心吊膽的春天」 很珍惜地抄寫起來。紀錄片看了兩次，一次是初讀她的詩，一次是余秀華公開自己被丈夫楊櫧策家暴。楊櫧策是余秀華第二任丈夫，小她十多歲。網路上很多人評議余秀華的受罪是否有幾分自找的成分，刷著那些喧嘩的留言，我突然很想再看一次《搖搖晃晃的人間》。第二次，看著看著，我想起第一次的心情，我在想，但憑任何人，在搖搖晃晃的人間，要走成直線都很艱難啊。
『不知從什麼時候開始，微信上的余秀華就分裂成「戀愛的女人余秀華」和「詩人余秀華」，漸漸後者越來越稀薄，我已經很久沒有讀到她的新詩。不過，在她的一篇散文下方，她回應一個問她「有沒有可能也能寫出生命的豐盛和平凡的喜悅？」的讀者時說：「生活又不是為文字服務的。」』——廖偉棠 https://p-articles.com/critics/3103.html
被家暴的女人余秀華，與求生的詩 | 廖偉棠 | 搖搖晃晃的人間 腦性麻痺故事我們看過綠洲的挑戰觀影認知的愛，和教你認識生活的友你才精彩，這次來個反差超大的中國女詩人余秀華的故事，因為長輩影想嫁給不嫌棄她的男人，但萬萬沒想到之後她會成為爆紅的傳奇‧ 裡面看出現中的各種標籤，余秀華因為〈穿過大半個中國去睡你〉爆紅，這爆紅友很大原因是詩名的吸引字面有關，更別說余秀華婚姻和爆紅的影響無處不跟標籤有關，即使標籤無非都是壞事.... 這場婚姻在離婚中分析，雙方都是被害者，余秀華的婚姻跟本只是家長想要的而非本人，但丈夫尹世平也沒好到哪去，活在身障爆紅者底下的陰影，對我而言很難站在哪一邊，只是還好結尾結束這場束縛關係了‧
戮力也不夠，必須奮身挺立在蒼勁的風中，搖搖晃晃地寫下盪擺的麥穗，燒燃妳金燦的堅意。爭抗也不夠，必須佇足抵禦在疲軟的爛泥，搖搖晃晃地寫下狂暴的黃土，飛颺妳赤紅的強韌。直率與坦闊，是妳理直氣壯聚攏與眾不同的歪斜，是妳義憤填膺穿越現世囚困的隙縫。 痛的徹底，才有痊癒的機會。 可是妳說，離婚前可以灑脫，離了婚了才不輕鬆。認定的不依附，換來癌末母親一句心硬的枷鎖。妳不追求重生，只是朝著自由前行，邁開步履，即便蹣跚踉蹌也不傾覆。從來就不是為了名聲而來，從來就不是為了取寵而來，從來就只是獨一無二。研討會上，文人學者論析筆鋒的妳，頌譽妳是艾蜜莉 · 狄金生。節目訪談，面容姣好的女孩們淚眼婆娑，同情妳的缺陷、悲惜妳的遭遇。其實，這都是將妳的「正常」視為不同我輩的「瑕疵」，彷彿是一種滿足於獵奇與憐憫的政治正確。 故里家鄉盎然的雞兔、莽鬱的農田，妳還有晶剔的冰雪，支撐旁人對妳的嘲弄與標籤、控訴與解讀。翠綠蔥碧的荷塘，盡情游憩的魚群，富足妳的洞察與甜夢。妳的力量很大、願望很小，那是對愛情的渴求，也不是沒有漠然。然而願望越小，就必須撐開越大的現實才能夠鑿脫束縛。 「肯定能聽到一朵菊花安靜時候的呼嘯 但是這隱密如同愛情的需要怎樣的情懷 才能預先包容秋天一開始的衰敗 一朵花有果實的內心，一開始就含淚 於是把每個秋天都當作歸期才燦爛得一敗塗地」-------<一朵菊花開過來>
問余秀華，詩歌是什麼呢？ 她說：「我不知道，也說不出來，不過是情緒在跳躍，或沉潛。不過是當心靈發出呼喚的時候，它以赤子的姿勢到來，不過是一個人搖搖晃晃地在搖搖晃晃的人間走動的時候，它充當了一根拐杖。」面對無法修改的現實，余秀華展現了無法修改的搏鬥意志和突圍行動，那是她和她的詩留給這個世界，最美的人形。
荒原一樣的強韌存在，或許就是余秀華的自畫像。彎曲而無法折斷。匍匐行進而絕不傾覆。她和她的故鄉橫店在紀錄片的交錯剪接之中，也成了彼此的鏡子。她和那片農田，有布穀、高粱和白日夢，還有冰雪、泥石流和荒謬。導演貼著余秀華和故土、母親、丈夫、詩壇和讀者所開展出來的各種關係去拍她和現實如何圍困對方，相互索求。她拒絕依附，追尋自由和獨立，無論那自由和獨立的追尋如何狼狽且不被理解和祝福。
余秀華在她的詩〈此刻，月光灑在中年的庭院〉寫「一個人就是一片荒原」，偶爾有房客，有雷聲，有春暖花開，即使凋謝的速度比綻開的決心快多了，這人還要「再試探著重新長出草，覆蓋流逝的水土和地面深處的岩漿」。即使這是中年，如今，他該有的都有了，只是「風不時地吹來，沒有誰看到他的慌張」。 慌張什麼？停滯的事物已經夠人受的了，還有更多的正在停下來，而他仍要生出力量，孕育新的綻開和新的凋謝，不被中年所困。那慌張是在對抗無望、對抗大於自身的力量。風不時地吹來，擊打他的荒原，也提醒他還有這樣未曾停下來的事物，值得他近身搏鬥。
她出現的時候，風很響。她的身體歪斜，聲線飄忽，很用力很用力，才將自己聚攏，御風而行。想起她在詩裡說過，喜歡一個人去河床，喜歡把腳伸進河床的裂縫，讓淤泥埋著，久久拔不出來，彷彿落地生根。 她的直和她的倔，幾乎是過度用力擺正自己而形成的另一種歪斜和飄忽。 拐動身體走過麥田，風很響──紀錄片《搖搖晃晃的人間》起始的鏡頭，抓住了余秀華的詩歌特質：直白現身的，不過是懺情露骨的語調，那轟然翕動而不可視見的風，才真正裹藏了她的明澈洞察。
《搖搖晃晃的人間》英文片名「Still Tomorrow」出自余秀華的詩句： 難道還有明天 可惜還有明天 難以斷絕的物事――像「明天」那樣的存在――具有雙重的寓意。你渴望的，還會再來。你恐懼的，也無能抵禦它再次來到。 Still Tomorrow的「Still」作為副詞：仍然、像從前一樣的明天。作為形容詞，成了「靜止的明天」。作為動詞，語意變為「要明日安靜、讓明日放下心來」。英文片名的歧異性，也許更能捕捉余秀華擺盪的心念。
在看紀錄片《搖搖晃晃的人間》前，必定得先讀幾首余秀華的詩。她在2015年以〈穿過大半個中國去睡你〉此作在網路上一夕爆紅，被分享轉載了成百上千萬次。她的詩直接、率真，以令人畏懼卻又有魅惑力的決絕與優美，談⋯⋯
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